TROLL:Internet slang, a troll (pron.: /ˈtroʊl/, /ˈtrɒl/) is someone who posts inflammatory, extraneous, cruel or off-topic messages in an online community, such as a forum, chat room, or blog, with the primary intent of provoking readers into an emotional response, or of otherwise disrupting normal on-topic discussion. The noun troll may also refer to the provocative message itself, as in: “That was an excellent troll you posted.”
I had my first experience of a Twitter Troll yesterday. The first person I have felt the need to block, and an experience which saddened me as it made me feel I had no other option.
What made it worse, is that it was a woman, or may well be somebody pretending to be a woman, as these days, Internet Trolls come in all shapes and guises. The attractive, smiling pictures they portray on their profiles are in most cases, hiding the real picture that is usually singularly unattractive in both looks and nature.
I was not singled out though, this particularly loathesome creature has been targeting any and all people who have had the courage to speak out about Child Abuse.
I did not not ask to have my past laid out for all to see, and like others on the Internet, would have happily remained in the shadows getting on with our lives coping as we have had to, for decades in some cases. It was only following the Television appearance of Steven Messham on the BBC Newsnight programme, that many of us felt the need to set the story straight.
But the damage was already done.
Regardless of the real story, despite the fact that many hundreds of people’s lives would be turned upside-down yet again, it was out there, and in the worst possible way. The first ‘Victim’ that was paraded before the camera’s, is the only victim that people will ever see.
The whole exercise (because that is what it was) was very clever in it’s execution, and again, I shall be laying myself wide open to the hoardes of misguided Trolls slavering in anticipation, but what happened on Newsnight was planned.
The Media gave the general public an image to focus on, a distraction from the unfolding scandal both at the BBC and in the establishment and no survivor of childhood abuse can ever escape from that.
If you dare to question the validity of the story, you immediately become a target. Steven Messham has become the only survivor who’s word the public will accept, the only voice allowed to question the injustice and tell his or her story without prejudice.
So I, and all the others who have a connection to the real story of the UK Care Home System are forever damned to not only live with the lifetime affects of their abuse, but also will never be allowed to be heard.
My, though I hesitate to use that word, but My Troll has probably guessed this. Her/his blog gushes with sympathy for Steven Messham and woe betide anybody else who dares to question his version. She has her supporters too, they massage her ego on a daily basis, joining in with her twisted views and encouraging her disgusting attacks on who, are mostly vulnerable people.
After a bit of digging, it was discovered that she/he themselves was a victim of abuse, who received no support or recognition of her own trauma, so now chooses to spit her poison at those that touch a nerve and remind her of her own unresolved pain.
She/he is also a victim, but a victim who has now become an abuser, this is quite common apparently, but unfortunately I am not that forgiving. I am not going to give him/her a cheap thrill by telling my story here, but what I shall say, is that not all survivors are like that, some just want to be left alone to get through the best way they can.
That choice has been taken away from us now, many are replaying their own horror stories in their minds on a daily basis. Speaking for myself, I have not had a restful night ever since the Newsnight Story broke.
So excuse me if I seem angry, but when a total stranger, tries to humiliate me and then has the nerve to block me in case I respond, then continues to tell her 60-odd followers that ‘I am trying to hunt her down, and she may have to call the authorities, because “Jimmy is unstable,” it pisses me off somewhat. One of her friends, who lays claim to being an intimate friend of Steven Messham, then responds to her blog and accuses me of saying that a then serving police officer, a Mr Gordon Anglesea abused boys at Bryn Estyn.
Is that not slander, have more important people successfully sued for huge amounts on lesser accusations? I have also responded on her blog, in as a respectful and polite manner as I could manage under the circumstances. She then tells me that I ‘Should Learn the difference between an Attack and a Disagreement!’ When you ridicule somebody because of a lifetime mental health condition, is that not a personal attack?
I may well be wrong I may be over-reacting, but is it not hypocrisy to say such hateful and harmful things, and then threaten to call ‘The Authorities’ because you feel paranoid and somehow threatened?
I have no doubts whatsoever that @jenniejenjen3 will be back, she has done it twice before, she blocks me, then unblocks to share some more bile, and then blocks again in case of repercussions. She, like all Trolls, is very clever, she does not always direct her spite directly at her chosen victim, but information on the Internet rarely remains a secret for long.
I shall end this by saying, yes I have Bipolar disorder, and for more than thirty years I have struggled with a condition that has nearly driven me to take my own life on more than a few occasions, but it has never once caused me to bully, threaten and try to humiliate total strangers!!
May I suggest though, that my Troll is in more urgent need of ‘The Authorities’ than I. Maybe then, she/he may be able to get the help they so desperately need, to successfully deal with their own Mental Health Issues.
Her blog can be found at jenniejenjen3.wordpress.com “Upside Down & Twisted” very apt!
I now await the Trolls….
I did not put this in originally until I felt it was appropriate to do so. As the other blogger now agrees, (see comments) I will now add a link to his blog which shows, in some detail the abuse and accusations he has also endured at the hands of this Troll..